In Your mess

by tiana on August 21, 2014 · 0 comments

in Fear

Destiny will always catch you off guard. It’s never when you’re ready. It’s never when you’ve figured it all out. It’s never when you choose to start over and try to get a clean slate. It will always come at you when you’re sitting there in your mess. When you’re tired, when you’re at your wits end, when you’re broke, when you’ve failed, when you’ve decided to give up; that’s when God calls you. It’s when it doesn’t make sense. When it looks impossible. When it’s scary and makes you uncomfortable. That’s when God is calling you to move.

When I decided to quit my job I was not doing great. I was depressed, I was lost, and I was spiritually dead. All of my hard work, my degrees I worked hard for, my hustle and grind that I did, I had nothing to show for it. I was ambitious and I had big dreams but I was stuck. There was nothing anyone can do or say about following a dream because I did everything I could do. I tried everything, took every opportunity, sucked up every rejection and kept standing; but I wasn’t going anywhere. So I quit. I quit and I just showed up everyday at a job I hated. I was spiritually drained and dead. So I settled for a job instead of a career. But when destiny calls, when God has a calling on your life you can’t deny it. It won’t let you go. It will constantly call you unless you kill it and it’s almost impossible to do that.

So I quit my job. My job that I finally found with full-time hours. My stable job with benefits to work a contracting job with no benefits. I quit to start a journey that I had no idea how it was going to turn out. I quit that job because it was killing me spiritually. I quit because God was calling me. He was making it so uncomfortable to stay in that low place, that place of depression that I found comfort in, that place where I wasn’t allowed to fly, that place where dreams went to die. He moved me from that place so that I can become who God wanted me to be. So that I can experience freedom and get back to the reason why I wanted to pursue my dream in the first place. To get back to myself and revive my spirit.

It will never be the right time to pursue the dream that God has placed in your heart. You’re worried about finances. You’re worried about benefits. You’re worried about failing. You’re worried about providing for your family. But guess what? God’s got you and when he decides to move you, you will be moved. You may not be able to quit your job right now but what are you doing on your days off? What are you doing on the weekend? What are you doing on your lunch break to make your dreams come true? The first step is the biggest. The first step is faith and God will catch you after that. Stop waiting for the right time and just go for it. When you’re stirred up in your spirit, your job has been driving you insane more than usual lately and your boss and co-workers have lost their mind. You’re sitting there wondering why you’re even there. You’re upset, you’re frustrated, and you’re tired. All of your mess is the perfect time to answer God’s call. It’s the perfect time to start working on your dreams. It’s the perfect time to find freedom and be who God called you to be. Amen.


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